i feel ill
powers that be above 1 more beyond level unseen
creation of circles of people of devotion
unintended side effect, lol, cant blame them for that
but it does work in their favor & this is what the illness is to me
[...] myself into its own scheme before i wouldnt have bn otherwise
attachment of ur own worth to its subsets
& all that above i see the beauty in the world regardless
please don't get me wrong on that however
beingcaught in circles where they use u as a crutch
almost surreal sometimes
last time u tried to fall back on some mattress of reason
[footnote: who's you again?]
you became a corner on that shape of threes...
...for + from those uncertain & manipulated
i bow for length unknown for i see nothing that deserves my respect more
but they only deserve it because of effects seen tangibly
if i operate on the same plane as those with one leg shattered
then surely i'd come to the conclusion that you'd be deserveth
of fucking nothing
and that still rings true in a sense because i do think u deserve nothing
i won't explain myself to you
there's nothing to miss here ccs they've always bn this way
i think you just hate people and sociality'
ha. social. get that one? i sure as fuck didn't
for a conglomerate to pick all up one by one and spit all over
to bend misshapen minds to their will
and that's why i'm ready to die

it was adjacent to fight-or-flight btw.. lol